My life so far

Ok the whole point of this blog is for me to write about my life but well i really havn't well i am now. recently my nan died and things at home have been weird. my nan use to take us everywhere and she used to do everything for us but now it's all up to me. my dad might be getting married again i want him to but i don't want him to if it makes any sense. the person seems nice and she is really pretty. but what should i do. and at school i think i'm invisable to most people but my friends and not many people take notice of me. i want to be more conident in myself and in who i am but i'm no so it's really weird. again what should i do. i need help and i think this blog is the only thing that keeps me sane at times lol. i know no one will read this but oh well. :) if anyone is out there HELP!